My Testimony

On Sundays I would like to share with you all one of my favorite worship songs. I have a whole list of them that I would like to share with you. So every Sunday I will post one of my favorite worship songs. But first I want to start with my testimony. After you read it you'll see why I wanted to start with it. I would not be starting this column if it were not for my testimony. That lead me to start this column.

I know I have been saying that I would post my testimony for a long time. Well, I'm finally posting it. On the side of my blog I said that my testimony was a post for another day. Well, today is the day. Here it is.

Before I jump into the story I want to tell you that I have always grown up in a good christian home. I always said I was a christian because everyone else in my family was a christian. But I never really knew what it meant to be a christian. Let's jump into the story.

When I was 6 or 7 years old I had several dreams/visions. I don't know if they were dreams or visions. I don't even know if they were true or not, but it was really strange. In one of my dreams the Holy Spirit kept telling me “Ask Jesus into your heart” It was like He was really trying to save my soul. That night I remember praying and asking Jesus to come into my heart. But I didn't feel any different. I had the same dreams for several more nights in a row. I did the same thing over and over again. But I still didn't feel like I was a Christian. At the end of my brother's 6th birthday party Mom prayed with all the little kids that were there, including me. She asked us all if we wanted to have Jesus as our savior. We said “yes”. Even after doing that again I still did not feel like a Christian. Songs meant nothing to me. There were just something that I learned in Sunday School.

Well, a couple of years ago, I was going to bed and I overheard Mom and Dad talking. Dad was worried that He was having a heart attack. So Mom and Dad were still talking when I went to bed. When Mom came to give me hugs and kisses she said “Dad and I are going to run an errand” This was at 11:00 at night. I was thinking “You guys are crazy. No stores are going to be open this late.” I knew something was up. But I didn't know what. So after Mom left from giving me good night hugs and kisses, her and dad left to run their so called “errand” At 11:30 at night. I was getting scared. I didn't know what to do. Mom and Dad were gone. It was just brother and I and our dog left at home. So first I tried going to my brother for security. He wasn't worried. But I was. So I went back to bed and I remember praying to God that Dad would be okay. For a long time that night I just kept crying out to God.

All the sudden out of no where I felt this peace. I had never felt this kind of peace in my life before. I felt God's hand on my shoulder.
You know when chickens lay eggs they sit on them and cover them with their wings to protect them? Well, that's what God does for us. When we ask Him into our hearts we become His children and he covers us with His wings to protect us. It was like He had covered me with His wings to protect me.
He was letting me know that everything is going to be all right and that He had it under control.

That night I finally felt like I was Christian. Before songs had never meant anything to me. But now they mean more than I can say. That night I remembered the dreams that I had as a little girl. They seemed to make sense. It was like God was trying to tell me that without Him we are lost.

Every year for Halloween we stay home and hand out tracks and candy to the trick -or-treaters. Brother and I usually make the tracks. Every year the tracks are a different theme. I try to take something that has to do with Halloween and incorporate the Christian message into it. This year the theme of my tracks was bats. Here is the finished track from this year.

Did you know that bats are blind? We are like bats. We can be blind too. Bats have no natural way to know where to go, but with their “sonar,” they can move completely accurately. Without their sonar, bats wouldn't be able to move freely. They would bump into things, they wouldn't have anything to help them get around. Before we excepted Christ, we were blinded from the truth. We didn't know which way to go. But with the Holy Spirit, (our sonar) we don't have to wonder where to walk. He protects our every step and takes us to the right place. But when we accepted Him into our hearts and believed that He died and rose again, we were then able to see clearly spiritually.

I think this track pretty much sums up my whole testimony. What this tracks says, I think God was trying to tell me when I was little.

The End

Being a christian has made having special needs easier. Having special needs is a blessing in disguise. I have been been able to help so many people with their problems because I have been there, done that and I know what it feels like to be different. God made me different and that's okay because He has a plan for my life. It has been a very humbling experience because you feel like your below everybody else. When really your not. We are all equal in God's eyes. Who said we had to compare ourselves to others? Nobody. In our society today it's all about comparing. It's about who is better than the other. We need to realize that that is not realistic thinking. It's okay if we're different than others. That's who God made us to be. We shouldn't be ashamed of it. I just want to say, that I would not be where I am today in life if it were not for my problems.

I will talk about some of my issues and how I have been able to help others because of it in the posts to come.

Just to let you know, Dad was fine. He just had a really bad chest cold.