“Open Our Eyes” Part 2- January 2020January 2020 was another monumental month for me.I grew up in CBS (Community Bible study) since I was little.I probably started attending CBS when I was 3 or 4 and stayed in it until I was 12 or 13. (2004/2005)That's when I started having issues with some people.
I had a traumatic incident with one of theJunior CBS leaders so I left. I was glad for a way out. I hated the lessons.
They were too hard. I didn't understand them. It didn't apply to me.
It was just busy homework. It meant nothing.
10 years later in 2015 when I was 23 or 24 I went back to CBS,
but this time I joined the adult core groups. But I had the same problem.
I liked the social, even though I felt like I didn't fit in,but I absolutely hated the lessons. Again I had the same problem.
The lessons were too hard. It didn't make sense. I didn't understand it.
It didn't apply to me. It was just busy homework.
I even tried the special needs agape group hoping that the lessons would be easier
and make sense, but it was to no avail. I still didn't understand the lessons and it
still didn't apply to me. It was still just busy homework.
The lessons were causing anger issues and panic attacks.I finally got so fed up with it that I left CBS in 2017.
I had stuck it out for 2 years (2015-2017). But I was done. I had HAD IT!
At this point I hated reading my Bible and I hated Bible studies and
devotional books because I couldn't understand it and it didn't mean anything.
I thought it would always be this way. I thought I would always hate the CBS
lessons and always thought the Bible would be this super hard thing to understand.
I always thought that CBS just didn't work for me because the lessons were too hard
and I was too different than everyone else.I'm a very relational, visual, musically oriented learner. I just didn't fit in.
What I didn't realize at the time was that the real problem was that I didn't have
the biblical background that I needed to understand the lessons and their personal
application.Thanks to Ron's sermons, Patch The Pirate adventures, Majesty Music and seminar sessions,I now have the biblical background and personal application that I was missing.I was also trying to fit in when I wasn't supposed to.In a previous blog post titled "I Was Made To Praise The Lord" I mentioned that I
learned that it's okay if we are different. Our job isn't to be like everyone else
and fit in, our job is to praise the Lord. We all have our different learning styles.
Sometimes they are just more pronounced than others.
We were cleaning the living room for Christmas (2019) and I came across one of
mom's CBS books that she didn't do. It was on the book of Daniel.I decided to pick it up and try it again now that I have a totally different perspective
on the Bible. I finished the whole CBS book, all 12 lessons in 2 weeks!
I actually enjoyed it and it meant something now!
Whatever lesson I was doing each day was exactly what I needed to hear that day.It was personal and relatable now!And it didn't cause anger issues or panic attacks!
This is something that I never thought would ever happen!
The fact that I can pick up a CBS book and do it on my own and like it and
understand it and have no anxiety issues with it is a total miracle!
I can't even believe it! Mind blown!
I'm very glad I did those CBS sketchnotes for those 2 years (2015-2017)
because I use them as other sketchnote ideas and as a reference tool.
I can go back and read my CBS sketchnotes and now I understand them and their
personal application. I used 4 of the CBS sketchnotes from 2017 for my
Patch sketchnote book.
Now I know why the adult CBS core groups didn't work for me.
I just wasn't ready. You can't dive deeper when you don't have the basic
background. You need the basics first and then you can dive deeper.This also makes sense why the CBS special needs agape group didn't work for me
either. It wasn't that the adult lessons were too hard, I just didn't have the biblical
background that I needed. It wasn't about me being different at all.
I just wasn't ready for CBS at the time.
Thank you Ron and Shelly Hamilton and Majesty Music.
Because of you, my life is forever changed!There are no words to say thank you. I am forever grateful!I love the song "Open Our Eyes" by Ron Hamilton.My eyes have definitely been opened to how simple and personal the Bible is."Open Our Eyes""Early every morning I come to you Lord,longing for the wisdom that's found in your word,guide every footstep and show me your way, that I may praise you today.Open our eyes dear Lord, open your holy word, show us your treasures there,show us your beauty rare, open our eyes dear Lord.Bread of my spirit and giver of grace, waken my senses and show me your face,strengthen my weakness and help me to grow, come now and nourish my soul.Open our eyes dear Lord, open your holy word, show us your treasures there,show us your beauty rare, open our eyes dear Lord.Open our eyes, open our eyes dear Lord, open our eyes dear Lord."
January 2020 was another monumental month for me. I grew up in CBS (Community Bible study) since I was little. I probably started attending CBS when I was 3 or 4 and stayed in it until I was 12 or 13. (2004/2005) That's when I started having issues with some people. I had a traumatic incident with one of the Junior CBS leaders so I left. I was glad for a way out. I hated the lessons. They were too hard. I didn't understand them. It didn't apply to me. It was just busy homework. It meant nothing. 10 years later in 2015 when I was 23 or 24 I went back to CBS, but this time I joined the adult core groups. But I had the same problem. I liked the social, even though I felt like I didn't fit in, but I absolutely hated the lessons. Again I had the same problem. The lessons were too hard. It didn't make sense. I didn't understand it. It didn't apply to me. It was just busy homework. I even tried the special needs agape group hoping that the lessons would be easier and make sense, but it was to no avail. I still didn't understand the lessons and it still didn't apply to me. It was still just busy homework. The lessons were causing anger issues and panic attacks. I finally got so fed up with it that I left CBS in 2017. I had stuck it out for 2 years (2015-2017). But I was done. I had HAD IT! At this point I hated reading my Bible and I hated Bible studies and devotional books because I couldn't understand it and it didn't mean anything. I thought it would always be this way. I thought I would always hate the CBS lessons and always thought the Bible would be this super hard thing to understand. I always thought that CBS just didn't work for me because the lessons were too hard and I was too different than everyone else. I'm a very relational, visual, musically oriented learner. I just didn't fit in. What I didn't realize at the time was that the real problem was that I didn't have the biblical background that I needed to understand the lessons and their personal application. Thanks to Ron's sermons, Patch The Pirate adventures, Majesty Music and seminar sessions, I now have the biblical background and personal application that I was missing. I was also trying to fit in when I wasn't supposed to. In a previous blog post titled "I Was Made To Praise The Lord" I mentioned that I learned that it's okay if we are different. Our job isn't to be like everyone else and fit in, our job is to praise the Lord. We all have our different learning styles. Sometimes they are just more pronounced than others. We were cleaning the living room for Christmas (2019) and I came across one of mom's CBS books that she didn't do. It was on the book of Daniel. I decided to pick it up and try it again now that I have a totally different perspective on the Bible. I finished the whole CBS book, all 12 lessons in 2 weeks! I actually enjoyed it and it meant something now! Whatever lesson I was doing each day was exactly what I needed to hear that day. It was personal and relatable now! And it didn't cause anger issues or panic attacks! This is something that I never thought would ever happen! The fact that I can pick up a CBS book and do it on my own and like it and understand it and have no anxiety issues with it is a total miracle! I can't even believe it! Mind blown! I'm very glad I did those CBS sketchnotes for those 2 years (2015-2017) because I use them as other sketchnote ideas and as a reference tool. I can go back and read my CBS sketchnotes and now I understand them and their personal application. I used 4 of the CBS sketchnotes from 2017 for my Patch sketchnote book. Now I know why the adult CBS core groups didn't work for me. I just wasn't ready. You can't dive deeper when you don't have the basic background. You need the basics first and then you can dive deeper. This also makes sense why the CBS special needs agape group didn't work for me either. It wasn't that the adult lessons were too hard, I just didn't have the biblical background that I needed. It wasn't about me being different at all. I just wasn't ready for CBS at the time. Thank you Ron and Shelly Hamilton and Majesty Music. Because of you, my life is forever changed! There are no words to say thank you. I am forever grateful! I love the song "Open Our Eyes" by Ron Hamilton. My eyes have definitely been opened to how simple and personal the Bible is. "Open Our Eyes" "Early every morning I come to you Lord, longing for the wisdom that's found in your word, guide every footstep and show me your way, that I may praise you today. Open our eyes dear Lord, open your holy word, show us your treasures there, show us your beauty rare, open our eyes dear Lord. Bread of my spirit and giver of grace, waken my senses and show me your face, strengthen my weakness and help me to grow, come now and nourish my soul. Open our eyes dear Lord, open your holy word, show us your treasures there, show us your beauty rare, open our eyes dear Lord. Open our eyes, open our eyes dear Lord, open our eyes dear Lord."
